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I never write anything personal here. Nor do I expect anyone to read this, but I have to say this somewhere.

I don't think I'm depressed. But I feel anti-social. And unkind. And very...bleh. And sometimes I just want to blow my brains out. I think my problem is I have nothing GREAT or BIG to look forward to. Something to *excite* me.
Excite me.
Excite.

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Primitive Pleasures. Grimmjow and Rukia. Enjoy
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( Sinful Chapter 17, Lemon )

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So today I was actually on FF.N just browsing around...

And I try not to care about reviews. When I don't care, I don't get crazy or a tad emotional, or whatever. Sometimes when I read stories too, or skim rather, and there are a lot of reviews, I wonder how they got all of these reviews (well if they're not that good), and on the flip side, I read something great and I wonder.... why aren't there enough reviews?!

So my question is... why aren't there enough reviews for awesome stories?

My friend questioned me one day on the lack of reviews... or why don't hit counts (or favourite story addition) correlate with number of reviews.

My answer was, that's how life is. People are lazy. Or ungrateful. Or... don't have something nice to say... (Yet, they add the story to favourites). Maybe I'm in a bitchy mood which is making me write this. Probably. And don't get me wrong, I do appreciate the kind reviews... I just wish I can reach through the screen and hug you awesome reviewers. But I think when someone put in a lot of hours in a story (maybe more than 24 hours), they want...something from it. Sometimes I don't care when I just drabble on about something.... but I do when I pour my heart in it and try to make it the best that I can (cause everyone knows I have grammar issues and I will just...post it). I do care when a beta-reader takes their time to look into a story. And I do when another beta-reader put their time as well. God knows how many hours that totals too. This latter part I'm referring to "Winning You," below, but the following question regards to every great story I read....and there just isn't a lot of recognition for their work.

So I'm asking the world now, why don't you review?

Do you not like the story? Are you afraid of hurting the authors feelings? Do you just don't want to give them the review? Maybe you're just one of those readers who never writes anything, and don't know the importance of getting a review? (Somehow I think writers review more than just those who read) Do you want the author to stop writing (because we can certainly make up crazy stuff in our heads)? Or is the hit count lying - hardly anyone is looking at it? That I can understand, cause how can you review something you haven't read.

So whoever reads this message, try to enlighten me a bit.
Yeah, I know I probably sound a bit crazy too.

P.S. On a completely different note, Dark Knight was awesome!!!

It's been a while, huh? Ready for more smut?! =) ( Winning You - Do you really want me to stop, Rukia? )

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( 'I do love you Rukia.' It's smut time, again. )

Something I wrote on FF.N. My penname is Goku's Daughter. Behind Closed Doors should be out soon. I hope. Enjoy.

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My pen name is Goku's Daughter. Enjoy.

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This was originally posted on FanFiction.Net. My penname is Goku's Daughter. Might as well use my journal for something (ie. smut writing)...
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